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‘Goodbye’

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Even though my heart will cry

It’s time to leave

It’s time to say goodbye

 

Nothing lasts forever

No matter how hard it sounds

No matter how much we would like to

We can’t change the way things are

 

It’s time to leave

Even though I love the place

Even though I’m sure that here I do belong

And my  heart will stay here forever

 

It’s time to leave

I’m leaving here my heart

I’m leaving here my soul

And my peace of mind

 

It’s time to leave

All I have is a hopeful thought

And a dream of coming back

One joyful day

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‘Misery’

When the darkness falls

I fall back into my misery

With the coldness of the autumn winds

I shiver inside and outside of my body

Drifting across the ocean of memories

Unwillingly

My ship is carried by the storm

The heart of my existence shattered

Shattered into pieces

I don’t want it

I don’t want to fall into this dark depth again

What if

What if this time I don’t find my way back?

Don’t take me

Don’t take me away

The fog comes

I’m melting

Souls bleeding with tears

Everything I see

No

Begging turned into sobbing

No hope for it to end

Before the light saves me once again

‘I know’

I know

You’ve already forgotten

How our fingers met

The touch so soft, like rose petals

How our bodies moved to the same rhythm

How your heart was beating

When I laid my head on your chest

 

I know

That you don’t care

You don’t need to see me

Ever again

You’re good with the attention

Provided by all those other girls

 

I know

Those memories are just the past

And you never wanted us to last

You prefer to have your freedom

And have fun all your life

I would be a burden for you, I know that

 

Even though I know

Even though I know all of that

I still can’t stop my mind from thinking

About what you’re up to now

I still can’t stop my heart from pounding

When I see somebody alike

I still can’t stop my body from wanting

To be close to yours

I still can’t stop my lips from desiring

A kiss that never happened at all

 

Aching

Poison

Drug

Breaking

Bleeding

Please release me

I’m begging you to let me go

‘The Awakening’

In the middle of the night so dark

The snow started falling from the sky

The sky was the colour of black coal

I woke up thinking whether I wanted him to know

 

I looked out the window into the depths of the world

The brilliance of the shapes deeply touched my soul

And I thought how beautiful and simple life could be

If one was born a star or a snowflake shaped so mysteriously

 

The night would have been a dark blanket of life

The world – indifferent in view of such short existance

Then why is it so, I sadly asked my thoughts

That I can’t choose the life I want so badly?

 

The night brightened as if in response

A tear froze on my cheek awaiting

For the day that was about to creep into my solitude

Gray, yet no longer black in its nature

‘In Search For More’

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Leaving the world with a smile on his face

Flew the spirit on the chilly winter’s embrace

‘Goodbye my tricky life

Go on with your unexpected dive

The space is waiting with its mysteries

So many roads to choose with no limits’

He knew the sweetness of blossoming trees,

The kisses of love, the pleasure he would miss

But the joys of the Earth were not enough

He wanted so much more to discover on his path

What he did – a lunacy, that’s what they called it

A mourning crowd was an illusion in not that little bit

The emptiness he did not feel anymore

When he realised he had it all in his hands, his proper lore

He left his cat, the rain and depressing fall

And then he announced, ‘’tis my final call’

‘Emptiness’

Emptiness

Deep inside your eyes

You’re calling my name

But it sounds like a frantic cry

 

Emptiness

It fills my whole heart

I peer down to look for you

But no space there seems occupied

 

Emptiness

In your words when you look back

And reach for my hand

Which was never yours in fact

 

Emptiness

Is what we feel for each other

A strange transparent glue

Which never worked and never will

 

Love

Is something we have still to find

But it never will be in between us

So let us peacefully fall apart

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‘Trust’

I could never see the sky

Through the joy

Through the pain

 

I could never realease my mind

Of my thoughts

Of my brain

 

I could never fall in love

With the right one

With no blame

 

I will forever trust my insanity

Despite the world

Despite what all of them may say

‘If you ask me’

If you ask me,

I won’t try

To please you with my answer,

Nor to force mine.

I won’t answer,

I won’t cry,

I’ll just stare straight ahead

For what was inside me

Has long ago died.

 

Still I can’t help but feel that

Your eyes stare blankly

Although you are spelling  out words.

These words are like paper,

Crushed and thrown into space,

Once empty, now filled with meaningless crap.

 

If you ask me,

I won’t tell you

My opinion, although you might assume I don’t have one.

I’ll just keep my words inside

Where they won’t rotten as they would

Outside between pointless lies.

Empty stare

‘The New Beginning’

Setting free imagination

Letting go

Of the tainted thoughts

Of worn out feelings

I am home

I am home again

Faces smile through the fog of emptiness

I am

I am again

Looking for more pain

To drown in for the future

‘The world’s loneliness’

Loneliness

How can we be so lonely

In the arms of the world?

How can we shout for attention

And be left unheard?

How can we hold somebody so tenderly

And be pushed away?

How can we be such sensitive souls

In the army of tough soldiers?

How can we all be alone

If all we need is a friend?

The world is so cold, sad and empty

When there’s no one to share.

If only we could be both strong and delicate

And with a song attract the sincere one left.